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[ijustlivehere]

I hate the frakking friend zone, you know? No girl ever seems to see me as anything besides... I don't know, a kid. Or any guy, for that matter, but I'm so afraid of my own bicuriosity that I don't even want to admit it to myself. I'm not that young.
I haven't had a real date that didn't involve a mistaken identity or being used for some ulterior motive since high school, pretty much.
It just freaks me out sometimes, because I'm afraid I'm going to end up alone.

Comments

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Sure. Doesn't mean it doesn't suck.

[risetwice.livejournal.com]

It does.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

[Oh. Solidarity. That's... actually comforting.]

Yeah, seriously. I just don't get-- [he hesitates] --some people.

[risetwice.livejournal.com]

What don't you get?

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

I dunno... screwing someone over to get what you want, or make yourself feel better, I guess. I don't get why people do that.

[risetwice.livejournal.com]

You can't always know someone's motivations.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

...Yeah, I guess. But sometimes people are just... selfish.

[risetwice.livejournal.com]

Maybe.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

People need to be like, I dunno, more... considerate or whatever. That's what I think.

[risetwice.livejournal.com]

That's probably true, too.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Yeah! Yeah.

...Sorry. I'm kinda venting. Didn't mean to do that.

[risetwice.livejournal.com]

That's all right, really.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Nah, I really don't wanna get all... girly, share-our-feelings time on you.

[risetwice.livejournal.com]

Do you have anyone to talk to about this sort of thing? I mean, someone who isn't a stranger on the Network.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

I know people, but... I can handle this on my own, really. I'm just in a weird mood today, that's all.

[risetwice.livejournal.com]

I guess I always thought that being able to do something and doing it were different.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

What do you mean?

[risetwice.livejournal.com]

Just because you can handle it on your own doesn't mean you have to.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

I want to. I think. I mean, I don't like bugging people.

[risetwice.livejournal.com]

You don't like using people.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Yeah, pretty much.

[risetwice.livejournal.com]

I know what that's like.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

You do?

[risetwice.livejournal.com]

It's hard. Especially when it someone you love.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Yeah, I know what you mean.