11.) [audio.]

[ijustlivehere]

Okay, yeah, this sucks. I'll admit it, okay? I hate that nobody ever wants to... no, y'know what? Forget people not ever wanting to do anything, people don't even hardly know I'm there unless I say something. It blows and I hate it and I'm... lonely. Okay? I said it, are you all happy now?

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[advancetheplot.livejournal.com]

I'm lonely too.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Yeah? ...Yeah, it... it sucks. People should... people are idiots.

[greedful-cheat.livejournal.com]

Oh? [Kazari spies someone he could eventually use for nefarious reasons] Then why don't you ask more often?

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

'Cause I'm tired of being the one who has to. Wouldn't kill someone else to make an effort for once.

[greedful-cheat.livejournal.com]

Maybe they don't realize they don't have to make such an effort. Or maybe they're the wrong type of friends... ones who don't really appreciate you.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

[Neil's bad mood is making him single out worst-case scenarios, so he only heard the second part of that.] Yeah, wrong type of friends, maybe.

[greedful-cheat.livejournal.com]

Maybe it's time for you to find new friends. Ones who won't hurt you like these ones have clearly done.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Maybe.

But if I find new friends, how do I know they won't just turn into assholes, too? Maybe everyone is an asshole.

[greedful-cheat.livejournal.com]

That's life. You have to try. If they're just as much as an asshole as your old friends, they consider that friendship being over at try again. There must be someone who isn't an asshole out there.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Yeah? Yeah, maybe. Hope you're right.

manipulative kazari is manipulative, so why use his human guise if he's not going to be seen

[greedful-cheat.livejournal.com]

You'll just have to try. Maybe it will make your so-called friends realize something, and if not, you'll be able to find someone new. Don't let this loneliness consume you. Use it to your advantage.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Use it to my advantage. Huh.

Thanks, man. You're all right.

[greedful-cheat.livejournal.com]

I thank you for your compliment. I hope my words will and do help you.

[advancetheplot.livejournal.com]

Yeah, sometimes they are asses.

[am-i-being-rude.livejournal.com]

Well, no, not happy about you being lonely. Not happy about being lonely, myself. It's a very particular feeling. You know how to go about getting apartments here?

I mean. I expect I'll be at work a bit more often now but I nearly always up for stuff in general. I don't know how helpful that is on the other side of you having said... that, particularly with having also said that having to say it is half the point. But. My point stands not-so-tall regardless.

[dulcisnuntius.livejournal.com]

Would you like me to come over and make you tea?

[Not that she knows how to use a kettle, yet. But she will try, gdi.]

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[7thborn.livejournal.com]

[Quite uncursed, but there's something about this that reminds her of Neville Longbottom, back in the day. So this gentle attempt at cheering up isn't entirely random, never mind that she doesn't actually know the bloke on the other end of this conversation.]

You know, usually it's the quiet ones that surprise everyone else. In my experience they tend to be loads more brilliant than they let on.

[mghtbconcussed.livejournal.com]

So we've done the killing zombies thing and the karaoke thing. What thing would make you feel better this time?

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[4llth3just1c3.livejournal.com]

Jeeez, humans are so whiny! Let's go do something then!

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

I dunno. When I got here, I just moved in with... [He trails off and frowns.] Yeah, I dunno. Sorry.

...You wanna... do stuff? With me?

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

[Silence, for a while. And then,]

...Maybe.

I mean, that'd be... yeah, maybe. Yes.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

...Yeah? You... Y'think so?

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

[Oh hey, it's that girl he likes. He should try not to be a jerk to her, despite the bad mood.]

Uhmm... I...

Dunno.

[Well. It was an attempt.]

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Do what? I mean, I'm not whiny! [He is.] Do what?

[4llth3just1c3.livejournal.com]

[She's laughing.]

You are totally whiny! And whatever you want. I don't caaare!