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[ijustlivehere]

[Neil is standing near the fountain, watching the insanity of the crowded City unfold.]

So wait... what the hell is going on today?

...No one ever tells me anything.

[ooc: OPEN ACTION, DOUBLES WILL BE WELCOMED, SPOILERS FROM BEYOND MID-BOOK 4 (where this guy's from) ARE ALSO COOL TODAY. BASICALLY EVERYTHING IS OKAY. I'M EXCITED. =D
also: I will be trolling under my personal account, jeilovesyou. As myself. So... that's who that is. If you wondered. Hah.
also also: I KNOW I HAVE A MILLION AND ONE TAGS TO DO, I promise I'll get to it after I have my tea.
AAAAAAAAND ACTION!]

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[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

[This is a very good point, as much as Neil doesn't want to admit it acknowledge it at all, or think about it, ever.]

How... do you know all this stuff, again?

[bakurakrazie.livejournal.com]

Oh, um, well, I kind of- look over certain people in the City? Like, what they do, who they speak to, what they say, sort of thing?

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

[That seems strange to Neil. You seem nice, but that seems like a... not-nice-person thing to do.]

And I'm one of them? That's... a little creepy.

[bakurakrazie.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's why I was hesitant to tell you. Uuuugh I always sound like such a stalker, you know? But I'm not doing it on purpose it's just- Well, look, you know the guy that wrote the guide? Not personally, obviously, he left the City a while ago. I spoke to him a few times while he was here, he's a real sweetheart, too.

Anyway. When I spoke to him, he gave me the phrasing of 'personal deity', because I can't describe things for shit, but he's a scientist and it's a pretty apt phrase. So, you know. Not you, but there are certain people in the City that I'm the 'personal deity' of. So I watch over them, see what they do, see who they talk to, hear what they talk about, and generally know a lot of stuff about them.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

So I'm not one of 'em? ...Well, that's cool then, I guess.

[Looooong pauuuuuse.]

And uh... you're right. Y'know, about Knives. 'Least, I think so. Probably.

[bakurakrazie.livejournal.com]

No, not you. No worries there.

[Brightens a little.]

Yeah? Well, I'm glad that you think so. She's given you the job of being her ex, in order to help herself get over him, while still not giving the idea of him up. The idea of moving forward, while actually staying in place, or moving backwards. I know a girl who's kind of like that, actually. You're only making it worse for the both of you in the long run.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

[Neil thinks about that, nods slowly... and then very suddenly buries his face in his arms. His words come out muffled.]

Ughhhhhhh. Girls are so haaaaaaard.

[bakurakrazie.livejournal.com]

Aw, I know. I know! I'm sorry, but I think you should be alright. I mean, do you have any specific questions?

[btw, on younger!Stephen's entry, go and interrupt ninja!Demyx's attempt at kidnapping if you'd like.]

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

[Neil thinks about that one for a second, then lifts his face.]

Yeah, actually. Y'know that thing where girls are all, I'm mad at you but I'm not gonna tell you why but now I'm even more mad 'cause you don't know why?

[bakurakrazie.livejournal.com]

[Staring. Staaaaaaring. STAAAAAAAAAAAAARIIIIIIING.]

Yes. I know what you're referring to.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

How d'you... how does that ever... there's... no good way out of that, is there? I mean, unless you've got psychic powers or whatever. So like, also, why.

[bakurakrazie.livejournal.com]

Um. No, I don't think there's ever a way out of it. I think that it's mostly for hurt or overlooked feelings? Or maybe not sticking up for them, or something.

I just- god, it'd be so much easier to just say 'Look, Jim, what you said back there hurt my feelings because of A, B, and C, so I'd appreciate if you didn't do it again.' Ugh, girls are stupid.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Yeah, stupid. And y'know another thing, If y' can't make up your mind what you want from somebody, trial and error is kind of a sucky way to figure that out. Girls should... should know that! Breaking up with someone over and over is bullshit.

[bakurakrazie.livejournal.com]

Oh my god, I can't tell you how much that annoys me in shows or- well, in real life, either. I mean, there's one couple I know that were on-and-off for a while, but they did something right, and just stayed 'on' and they got married last year. But still, it's so annoying!

But you should stick up for that, you know? A lot of girls thing that guys are stupid and are all perverts. Which isn't true, guys are simple and think simplistically, which is very much not the same thing as stupid. But seriously, communication is always the key. Tell them that you refuse to play a part in their experimentation!

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Really? They got married? Wow.

Yeah! I should tell her that! ...Them. Should... tell them that.

[bakurakrazie.livejournal.com]

Yeah. They were okay the last six months they dated. They stayed on, a lot fewer fights. They're overall a great couple, though. She gets kind of mad scientist sometimes and he dances a mean Single Ladies dance.

Wait wait wait, them? More than one girl has done this to you?

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

[Neil nods, considering this.]

What? Yeah. I mean, no, I just meant... in general. 'Cause in the future, girls might... [He sighs.] ...Actually yes.

[bakurakrazie.livejournal.com]

What, seriously? What about you makes these girls scream 'use me'?! What were their excuses?

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

I-I dunno. Maybe I just have really bad luck.

[bakurakrazie.livejournal.com]

No, no. That's way beyond bad luck. Lack of confidence, maybe. You should work on that. Start, like, looking into a mirror and saying sappy shit like 'My name is Neil, I am awesome, and I deserve someone who likes me for me!' Girls like confidence anyway.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Confidence. Right. [He straightens his shoulders back, part-subconsciously.] I-if anyone asks, though, I'm totally not gonna talk to a mirror. [Which means he totally is.]

[bakurakrazie.livejournal.com]

Yeah, people always say that you should practice monologues in front of one, but that always seemed kind of ridiculous to me? I don't know. I guess it must work for some people, otherwise no one would recommend it.

But yeah! Confidence. Like yourself! Don't be so down on yourself.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

I-I'll try that. Uhmm. Thanks.

[bakurakrazie.livejournal.com]

You're welcome! And good luck. No bitches, hey?

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

[That gets a grin.] No bitches.