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[ijustlivehere]

I hate the frakking friend zone, you know? No girl ever seems to see me as anything besides... I don't know, a kid. Or any guy, for that matter, but I'm so afraid of my own bicuriosity that I don't even want to admit it to myself. I'm not that young.
I haven't had a real date that didn't involve a mistaken identity or being used for some ulterior motive since high school, pretty much.
It just freaks me out sometimes, because I'm afraid I'm going to end up alone.

Comments

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Uh... twenty-one-ish, I guess. I'm not really sure how stuff works here. Like, if I should count my birthdays based on the City's time stream, or if I should base it on what it'd be back home. But yeah, basically twenty-one.

[adamantined]

I count it based on the City's time stream. You're living here, so why not? And I'm never getting older, so what does it matter?

But anyway, you shouldn't let bad experiences make you think that you're going to end up alone. It's easy to get bogged down in them, but you're twenty-one, and you're a guy. I think by the rules of life you aren't even supposed to be thinking about forever at this point.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's a good point. That'd probably be easiest.

...I guess, but it's kind of a pattern or whatever. I don't think it's gonna change any time soon.

[adamantined]

It only gets complicated when you get ahead of yourself, leave, and then come back.

Not if you keep thinking like that, it won't.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

I dunno if it'd change just because I want it to. Don't think it matters what I think of it, it just happens.

[adamantined]

What are you, cursed?

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

No.

...I mean, maybe. I guess I wouldn't know.

[adamantined]

I meant that.... I didn't mean in City terms.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Well, y'know, either way. I don't know. But it's probably not that. I just don't know what I'm doing wrong.

[adamantined]

I don't think anyone ever really knows what they're doing wrong.

[illgrowoutofit.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm sure plenty of people aren't doing anything wrong. Not everybody's as frakked up as me. Seems like most people get along just fine.